This
Holy Week, we have installed a (borrowed) labyrinth in the middle of the nave.
Labyrinths have a long tradition as an aid to meditative walking. They can be
found permanently marked out in the floors of cathedrals, or temporarily laid
out in canvas on the floor of the Minster. But to an ancient tradition, we have
added a contemporary twist: inviting people to bring items for the local food
banks, and to place them along the edge of the path. For God may be encountered
both in suffering and in compassion; in desperate circumstances, in the face of
the one who has need to come to a food bank, and in the face of the one who
volunteers there.
The
labyrinth is available for unguided walking throughout the day (9am-3pm) but
also in led meditations (7.30-8.30pm Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday; 12-2pm Good
Friday). Last night I introduced the idea to those for whom it was new, by
walking the labyrinth with a commentary of my experience walking it earlier in
the day.
There
is no prescriptive way of walking, but a common one is to walk slowly into the
centre releasing something to God;
to spend time at the centre receiving
something from God; and then to walk slowly back out to the edge, returning to the everyday world beyond.
That
said, it can also be good to walk with no agenda, and simply for the sake of
setting aside time in the presence of our own body – this is a tactile experience –
and God
and those
around us – this labyrinth is easily big enough to take nine or ten
people at any time.
I
began by reading, slowly, prayerfully, through the Passion narrative in Mark’s
Gospel; asking the Holy Spirit to give me a word to carry into the labyrinth,
to turn over in prayer. Short words, one or two syllables, spoken with each breath
in and out, can be an aid to reflective prayer.
The
word that ‘caught’ as I read was ‘naked’ – when Jesus is arrested, a young man
wearing only a linen robe is caught, but wriggles out of his clothes and runs
away naked.
I
took off my shoes – a practicality, to protect the canvas; but also a
recognition of being on holy ground, and part of the tactile experience – and
stepped into the labyrinth, slowly turning over the word naked, naked…naked I
came from my mother’s womb and naked I shall return – the words that came into
my mind are those of Job, when catastrophe robs him of his identity in work, of
his identity as a father, and almost of his identity as a husband. But not of
his identity as one who receives identity from God, in gain and in loss, in
blessing and in suffering. As I continued to walk, I reflected on this, on the
reality that we bring nothing and take nothing with us, on how that challenges
our assumptions about privilege and entitlement. Things in my society – and in
me – that I needed to release to God.
Walking
a little further along the path, still meditating on naked, I was hit by the
word shame. Not shame concerning physical nakedness, but the shame of being
stripped of the image we construct and present to the world. The shame of
having to go to a food bank. The precarious shamelessness of the powerful –
including myself. Here was more to release to God, and an exploration of the
ways in which I ‘dress’ myself, present myself, so as to hide rather than
reveal my true self.
Arriving
at the centre, I knelt and continued to pray, asking to receive. Almost
immediately, Jesus spoke to me about the sheep and the goats (Matthew 25). Not
in terms of ‘this is what you ought to do’ but as a fresh revelation that Jesus
fully identifies with those who are naked, with those who are hungry. Not only
with those who are these things physically, but also with those who are naked
and hungry spiritually. That in my recognition of my own nakedness, and that of
my society, Jesus was to be found.
And
then another passage from scripture came to my mind – the more familiar we are
with scripture, the more God can speak to us through scripture – Zechariah’s
vision of the high priest Joshua (coincidentally, the Hebrew version of the Greek
name Jesus) standing in filthy robes and being accused by Satan (satan means,
the accuser). But God rebukes the accuser, and commands that Joshua’s filthy
robes be removed and festal robes put on him, symbolising that God has dealt
with his guilt. The vision continues with the promise of a day when God will
remove the guilt of the nation in one day, and when each one will invite one
another to sit under their vine and fig tree. In other words, a sudden and
decisive change, and a sharing of resources.
It
felt like a commissioning, both personal and corporate, to live out that vision,
to live as those whose own guilt has been dealt with in order that we might be
generous with our resources. And so the walk back out from the centre to the
edge was a prophetic act, a response, a returning for the world God loves and
for which he gave his Son, even though we rejected him.
And
the reality is that it is hard to live that way on a daily basis, and that we
need such moments when we can struggle to release into God’s hands what we
ought not to carry around as a burden; receive from Jesus that which he wants
to give us instead; and return to the world to share what we have received with
others.
I
know that other people have had experiences every bit as significant, and even
more so. And for those who have not, the very least that has happened is that
they have sat prayerfully in God’s house, and perhaps read through the Passion
narrative – and that in itself is a significant moment.
The
Labyrinth For Our Times is a real gift to us, and from us, this Holy Week.
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